sometimes we must learn to let go.
sometimes we must learn to close our eyes in faith.
sometimes we must walk through fire, barefooted.
sometimes we must taste lonliness on our tongues.
sometimes when we feel that all hope is lost,
all feeling is gone, all love has dissipated-
we learn to let go and start anew.
and it is only when we have learnt this lesson;
this lesson of faith, of friendship, of hope,
of tears, of sadness, of lonliness,
of confidants, of brokenness, of darkness..
this lesson of utmost pain and suffering,
it is then we find the true beauty of the people around us,
silently supportive of us all the time.
it is when we see our true friends-
like light in a dark tunnel;
that we learn to truly understand their importance.

the importance of a friend. a soulmate.
the importance of one who really understands.

meow! ((: // at 12:45 PM.

good friday

hmms. finally can cum online agn :) yeas. finally got mie fone back. and i moved de fone back to my room. where it should be. or maybe not. x)
la. hmms. i decided tht i love chem but dislike eng. and ive resigned to my fate. i shall like chinese and the teacher :l
bleehs. i love taking walks ard de level. so nicee to walk ard and stare at squddies having lessons. :)) haha. esp outside loyalty. mrs lai is so nicee. haha. any other tcher wundnt haf let me escape wif tht kind of prank. haha.
eileen's fren is so cute... tht prefect wanling. haha. cos tht day i like went to stand wif enen and mie laopengyou at loyalty during assembly. den when i went back to wenxu den she abit like keep on asking me to go back to loyalty. den i jus stand there looking blur and laughing at de same time. hahah. so funn. den all de prefects there all looked so baffled. and dey all were looking at me like i wld escape agn... haha. but wanling was still the cutest. haha. de cutest funniest prefect ever. :)
im such a baffling person
hahah. yays. woke up qt late tdy. lazed ard for once in a long long while. :)
and i read de arrest, trial, cruxifiction, death and ressurection of Jesus frm all four gospels. :)) yeas. feel qt accomplished. hahah. :)) the acts of the apostles. :)
and i did chem! :) kindda lazy to do bio. so many things to write. :l and i seriosly dread eng compres. :/
went to mie fav place agn ytd :) haha. the noodles were qt nice lars. haha. yays. so funn. but ytd we saw more pple. like so guangmingzhenda. haha. luckily din meet any repeated personnel. :) haha. so exciting to be on de runn. :)
yums. i love tht place filled wif food and chocs. :)) yays. yue xiang yue happy :))

going out again later. yays. but dun feel like watching movie lehs. :l i feel like having cake w/ ice cream. :)
enen>> sorry lars. i wanted to yue ni chu qu but i tot u wld go hm n sleep. :l
baas. i shud ask first. next time ba. kays? :)
tudi>> heys cheer up yeas. and for the thousandth time- i dont dao u!!!! :p haha.

ahhs. life in sj is getting more n more complicated. last time i was happy tht it was such a bigg part of me. now its more like a bigg burden. :l i still like it but somehow... its not the same exhilarating feeling. not anymore. and i doubt tht feeling of love fer sj will ever come back. i dont hate it now. but i dun like it as much either. :l
no words can put it right. its just another change.
that i will have to accept.
and i have to learn that
things will never be the same again.

meow! ((: // at 11:36 AM.

missing.

hey heys. im like finally back. like aft being so guai tht i nv go online fer 1 wk le.. urr. feel kind of deprived.. :/
and nopes. im not studying. been staying back like almost everday.. bleehs. erms. yeps. do i look so nice as to stay at home everyday and study.. dorts. hah. anw. this wk like nth really happened. :l
dorts. erm acct like got onli some minor stuff happen but also lazy to say.. heh heh. and i want boo boo cake!!!! ahhhs. hmm. i shall see if i can eat tmr. ;))
got flag day wif xu n philana tmr. urghs. tink phil's gna wear her blouse there cos she gt no more pe shirt. huhs. no one wld walk ard town for five hrs in a blouse. at least not me. so hott. :l
towned agn today :)) acct i went out wif someone but den abit like not tou ji mo gou onli lars. den like we met a few ppl ... like dun wan others to know tht we went out tog.. haha. so lame. all de pple i dun wan to see den end up seeing. so xie men. dorts. ahhs. din tk neos. so ke xi. :l
tink xue is qt angry wif me. ahhs. i shudnt haf lied to her. :/
i feel evil. like i always do. but then. i still shouldnt have lied to her. urghs. why cant i stop mieself?? ahhhhs.
so lame.. bleeehs. april fool's day in all mie frens school sounds qt funn. but our sku like no tricks wan. so borrrring. :0
yawns. mie dad n mum abit nt asking me to hurrry up get offline larrrs. like dorts.
so much happened this wk. acct. its more like last wks events continued. :/ but im jus too lazy to bother. or perhaps im too tired. composed de war poem like long long ago. wells. had hist// maths test tdy. it was so....weird. like onli ban tong shui and everthing also no conclusion de. mie source based sucks. yucks. tink i prefer essay. okkay. thts kinda pervertic. :/

anw. i realised how much i lie. thats bad. very bad. uh. but yeas.
23rd april is such a special lucky nice fortunate day. :D how good. :)
it also happens to be mie dui xiang's day. :D hahaha. so hapee.

seven-- thanks larr. we really nt angry. who ever said we were? relax. we're happy pple. yeas. :))
zoeraine~ heyys. ur last entry was... well. touching. ina way. and i jnow wot ure talking abt! haha :D
ens__ thanks. u really helped in ur own small ways. and sitting at ur place there qt good wot. i can always drop by and talk to u :)) at least most of the time im walking past ur clss. cheer up yeas. :D

at least i dont cheat. unlike some pple. bleehs.

meow! ((: // at 9:49 PM.