the phantom of the opera.

yea. the phantom rocks la!
love the movie. and the music!!
but i think the musical wld be better.
heh.
watched it for like two days in a row.
haha.
but i still dont like the plot.
the phantom shld be good!
ahhhhs.

was in a very very good mood on weds and today.
((:
guess why?
hahahahah.
yea.
just ultra happy la. ((:
-grinns.
-wide grin
-even wider grin.
hahah. think my lips are going to split if i cont grinning la.
heh.
was being super hyper last night can. haha
and we were like so enthu la. heh.
singing away at like midnight?
haha.
the 'camp' rocks la! ((:
yea.
(:
we rock.

heh. did what i kept dreaming of doing last night. :))
heh. prob the root cause of my good mood?
just that i was sabotaged.
:/
-stares.
heh heh heh. ((:
:D
wert. heh.
(:

yayys. countdown tonight.
((:
not fair.
dont get to see hemhem. :/
like wert. haha

seems like i got a whole pile of things to settle. :/
crapp.
not exactly looking forward to that.
but wells. :/

and happy new year! :))
and happy birthday to shihui too! :))

meow! ((: // at 2:53 PM.

questions.

aw crapp.
the plan's in a mess.
and i still havent solved the present issue.
and my leg is cramping on me.
rahhs. :/
and actually i forgot to mention someone's
ahem. WORMY CHIA! :))
hahaha.
yeaa. me and my laming crapp.
:)
ab joke la. heh.

meow! ((: // at 10:15 PM.

watching you silently.

alright. have to admit that i sounded abit depressed in my prev entry.
but i didnt mean it that way! (:
heh.
okay. yars.
it came out abit too depressing? :/
haha.
cnt control mars. :)
and im seriously not refering to anything in particular.
yarrs. haha. convincing?
nah.
really!
but thanks zoeraine! :))
thank you loads! :))
haha.
and enen and jiayu!
thanks fer the cup. haha :))
and i really thot it was a cd lor. :/
cheated. haha :)

meeting at macs today.
to settle everything.
altho we didnt quite expect wenxun mam nt to come.
but yars. guess its more or less settled?
haha. cca fair too.
ohyars.
cca fair prep tmr!
10am till 12nn.
sqdmates meet at 9.30 am.
all sec twos and threes '05 must go! :))
ehh.
and we have an impt announcement to make!
haha. but shhhh! :))
so you all better come okay.
haha. :)

hope it all goes smoothly la.
after all we've done.
if it falls apart,
think we can all go and bang the wall.
:/
yarrs. heh heh. thinking abit far.
shucks. shud have gotten his present today!
oh shit.
:/
now how?
darn.
great la. :/
thanks to the 20 boxes of frozz.
the ppl are so going to get stomachache la.
haha.
i want my kitkat gold!!!!
ahhhs. :))
thinking abt it makes me want to drool alrdy.
haha. rightts. :) ehs.

crapp! the present how??!!!
and i qt know wht to buy la. :/
darn. why didnt i get it earlier?
shucks.
-bangs head against the wall.
bang. *:/
ouch.
hahaha.
being lame again. :) haha.
crapp.

meow! ((: // at 5:53 PM.

// how could this happen to me?
i've made my mistakes
got nowhere to run
the night goes on
as im fading away
im sick of this life
i just wanna scream-
how could this happen to me?

+and i cant face the things that i've done.
+and i cant stand the pain
and i cant make it go away //


err okay i agree.
im sorry okay.
i didnt mean for it to end up this way.
and im sorry you think this way.
sorry.
well. thats all i can say.
yes im thankful but i cant deny
that i fell.

hard.

i wish it was that simple.
:/
and i realised that
i need you more than ever.
even more than i thought i ever would. :/
i wish you were here.
i wish i hadnt done all this.
i wish i hadnt made that mistake.
i wish i hadnt let you down.
i wish it wasnt all this complicated.
i wish it all hadnt happened.

wishes wishes wishes.
why do they never ever come true? :/
i miss you like crazy.
but i know you'll never come back to me.
:/

why am i thinking about this?
:/
i wont fall.
im a warrior! ((:
yes. and im going to fight back.
im not going to let you break me down.
and i wont.
i'll show you.
i can be the me i used to be.
(:

but well. its christmas! (:
merry happy christmas everyone! ((:

meow! ((: // at 4:02 PM.

i'll never be the same again.


crapp. exam's tmr. :/
like eight am in hq in full u.
great. (:
haha. but im looking forward to the days aft the exam la.
freedom! haha. and fun and christmas!
but no more fabian! :/
haha. and no. i am not obsessed. (:
heh. he just rocks la! ((:
ahhs. im qt scared fer my MOI fd lehs. :/
as everyone knows, my commands cannot make it. :/
wells. thats great.
anw i plan to do a command without the intro and caution and execution thing.
yes. (: less complications ma. heh heh. (:
anws i hvnt study! ehh.
no la. i just cnt rmb much.
well. :/
ahhs. hope it goes well tmr! :)
moi. head injuries.
shucks. and i dint even know i shrug my shoulders that frequently. :/
wells. the more i lament the more nervous i get. haha
think i'll just go and watch tv or sth. haha.
i cant study at night anw. its my play time. ((:
heh. nocturnal mars. (:
yayys.
okay.
good luck to everyone taking the exam tmr! ((:
and thanks charles sir [though i hope you dont read this]
and xun ma'm fer the cab! ((:

oh and did i forget to mention?

charles is so nice!
haha. definately ALOT nicer than i expected. haha
((:

meow! ((: // at 7:26 PM.

anco camp! (:


zoeraine! cheer up! ((: dont think too much abt it kays.

tell me is this fate?
when opportunity and chances dont coincide.
who's to blame?
when it all just happens to collide.
tell me you'll pick yourself up again.
and get over this disappointing pain.
tell me you'll be strong.
and nothing will go wrong.

four days and three NIGHTS with FABIAN.
haha. what could be better?
heh. he seriously rocks. :)
and he's seriously cute. :)
ahhhh. :)) -faints.
my gosh. camp rocked! (:
but in case enen regrets anything, lmj didnt come at all.
so much for being dm. haha.
and someone's choc pancake was grp inst! hahaha

camp day one.
was grp ic. elephant!
usual stuff.
barang check and bunk 'check-in'
bunk check. so strict la. :/
had triage with a very grumpy charles sir.
haha. im a bloody lizard!
haha. thats what he said la. like good.
he's so corny can. in a nice way la.
lunch was some horfun. :/
then had moi and fd.
parade and dinner.
didnt get to bathe. only washed hair.
then lectures and more lectures.
supper was cheapskate biscuits and milo.
woken up at one plus for fire drill.
all the usual scoldings and 'wake up your idea!'

daytwo
woke up before six.
morn pt was okay.
with fabian in a sleveless tank. (:
got all the "get into XXX lines now!"
and all the pumpings and crunches position change.
ran 3 rds ard the ftball field.
flag raising and breakfast.
bf was bread and jelly.
haha. its jam jelly.
and charles sir is right. its too sweet
and it tastes nicer alone. haha.
had two lectures and comm singing.
then we had outdoor cooking!
the chicken rocked! and the egg too. haha
went for hike. like 3 1/2 hrs la.
and anco hik was twelve km can.
legs were darn pain la. :/
but it was nice! talked to wenxun along the way.
she rocks la! :)
we got back at six and managed to shower.
so shuang! (:
then dinner and parade ( to change i/c.)
had two more lectures and then campfire item prep.
we practiced our elephant dance! (:
and charles liked it! haha. cos we were v enthu!
lights out at 0130.

three.
same morn stuff.
pt is fun! yayys.
jongmeng took us for four rds.
legs like dying la. haha
aft hike somemore.
had fd aft breakfast.
showed charles sir our item again and practiced somemore.
had bunk check! and they threw everythink all over the floor la.
then we cld hear all the mess tins crashing to the floor while standing outside.
scary la! :/
lunch then teambuilding games!
games rocked! (:
haha. splashed three inst!
:) lucky that vincent nv tk revenge.
he nt abit act angry la. haha.
had buffet dinner in honor of the zc.
had campfire! :) wheee!
it was so fun la! and we were qt enthu.
haha. funn!!
then got that bday thing. :/ like not lame la.
fabian's a december baby too!!!
haha.
sec twos and em. suhui. zoe!
thanks for the meowmeow bday song!
:)) loved it! :))
haha.
we wanted to do sentry lor!
but we were supp to have triage so we were forced to sleep.
but didnt even have lor! cos of the rain la.
feel so darn cheated!
all that vincent's fault la! :/
haha. but he was so nice!
i want sentry!!!

day four. last day!
was still raining so we had pt in the hall.
vampire jumping jacks. hahah.
had area and bunk cleaning.
then bunk insp. :/
and we were saying cheers so happily untii we were stopped and made to go clean somemore. :/
haha. had lunch and then changed to full-u.
had evaluation and phototaking.
fabian was so cute! hmmhmmhmm?:))
haha. and i think charles sir heard what i said. :/
oops. haha. last parade and we had to scram.
:)

other camp stuff.
raffles!:))ha. weijie was sitting so straight during dinner and he looked so zhi and serious. it was so funny can! haha.
tikoyaukwee QUEK!!
haha. him and his biantai look. so funny! :))
not charles. not lame la! haha.
fabian and his hmm hmm hmm? haha.
and his desire and fire. :) me!
haha very.
dont know why my grp always laugh at meals.
who's getting married? haha.
oh! my grp incorporated wenxun into our cheer.
haha. and we used her 'nickname'. :)
elephant and owl were so enthu can! :))
so fun! haha.

kinda miss camp now! :))
but there will never be another one like it.
sec twos! you all are lucky la! nxt yr atill got anco.
better go okay! :))
exam's on the 19th. :/ rahh.
MOI fd! ahh. my commands cmi la.
:)) thats all. :))
anco rocks!

meow! ((: // at 6:56 PM.

caught in the web of love. (:

wheee! camp's in abt seventeen hour's time! :)
ahaha. hope we all pass! :)
hehheh.
who knows if hiking 10+ km will make me report sick?
:)) even if i do, its all for a good cause! :))
haha. okays.

course- 2nd to fourth dec.
kcpss. elephant.
:) shall recount all the nice course happenings. :)

okay. last thursday was the start of it all!
reported, UI-ed, adjusted etc.
had lectures abt leadership, and all that crap.
changing parades qt frequently.
full-u to half-u to full-u and pt kit and back again. :/
apparently fabian was not in his best mood. :/
had qt a rough morning with grumpy but still cute him . :)
walked out to macs fer lunch. we practically took over the whole place la.
abit 60+ ppl stomping ard and spreading out all that sweat-stench. :/
wells. walked back and had more lectures.
we kept on getting reminded that we better buck up cos we're advance cadets.
and we were occasionally shouted at.
but overall, it wasnt that bad at all. :)

day two and three.
basic cadets came.
did all the usual stuff. had fd and practised fer the opening ceremony on sat.
blahh. did something i wish i hadnt done. :/ reported sick.
and the reason? an overwhelming weak//tired sensation due to lack of breakfast and too much sun. and possibly loss of fluid due to over-sweating. :/
anyway. i just lapped down alot of water and asked to fall back in.
[met evelyn! :)) and her new socks. :)]
okay. lectures and toc and triage and cpr.
cpr rocked! :)) cpr with fabian, of course! :)
heh. toc and triage were qt fun too. :)

[for jiayu's info: toc with her choc pancake man. :))]
[and for enen's info: the dm didnt turn up at all. :)]

the rest of the course was the usual.
nothing that notable la.
ahaha. the instructors were nice and yes, wenxun is cool. :))
saw liching and siaohui on the third day too. :)
the debrief was the best. fabian was being super humourous la. :))
ahhhhh. :))

mon. sqd meeting. :)
and snsj has a new aim!!!! :))
heh. or rather, a new target! :)
but till the appropriate time, i shall not be let out of the bag. :))
meow! :))
went army maket with suhui, emily and the zoeraine that just came back. :)
and that jiayu purposely refused to gei mian zi on the bus la. :/
like good. heh heh. :)
bought all the stuff we needed.
the woman abit nt try to cheat me fer the torch la. :/
yepps. :)

tues.
made grp flag! :)
our flag rocks! :))
and our col is supposedly gold. :)
elephant! :))

that's abt it. :))
camp's tmr!!:)
wish us luck! :))

meow! ((: // at 4:46 PM.